I can never forget seeing my pig herd loaded on the wagons in 1982. And yes the feeling that I had let them down is still there. Broke me. Seen other farmers go through it too. The Emptiness.
Its comforting to know you understand how I feel Nick. Theres nothing worse than watching your herd leave on the truck. Thank you for sharing this with me. It does make it a little easier knowing others have felt the same.
I lost my little farm too. The tenancy ended suddenly as the landlord decided to sell up and cash in on it (but later had to change his mind due to it being of unorthodox construction and unmortgageable and so he ended up renting it out again!! Extra gutting! ).
My life has never been the same since. I had to sell my closed herd of dairy goats ( I sobbed that day til the tears ran out) and I had to sell my geese, hens, ducks, quail...rehome my 4 ponies....l left behind young fruit trees that I never got to witness bearing fruit.....the list goes on..... I grieve it still to this day 9 yrs later....I long to go back . It was my soul home. Its devastated me. I hear you xx
I'm so sorry to hear this, I'm really sad to say i've heard similar stories before. Its sad that neither tenant farmers or landowners are safe from being forced out of the industry. I think what gets me is that some people don't understand the deep heartbreak. Yes sometimes people have to give up their dreams, big deal. But most people don't have to say goodbye to animals that had such an impact on their lives. And equally we have a huge impact on our livestock's lives. We become a family working together.
Ive been quite strong lately writing my posts on the end of our farm but this one broke me because of the loss of me pigs.
Thank you again for sharing your story with me. If you ever need to talk, i'm hear to share your grief.
Thank you. I think unless you've built up a closed herd or you've run a farm singlehandedly and planted your life, blood, sweat and soul into the soil, then no one truly understands. My grief is minimised by everyone who asks me about my old life. They point out the imperfections of my old land or flip it to be about them moving house and them missing a previous property too. It's just not the same. They don't get it x
Hi Sue, ultimately because we couldn’t afford to keep going anymore due to loosing a planning battle that restricted our farming activities too. I talk more about it in part 3
I can never forget seeing my pig herd loaded on the wagons in 1982. And yes the feeling that I had let them down is still there. Broke me. Seen other farmers go through it too. The Emptiness.
Its comforting to know you understand how I feel Nick. Theres nothing worse than watching your herd leave on the truck. Thank you for sharing this with me. It does make it a little easier knowing others have felt the same.
Thank you. I will have a read. I love the fact you had free-range pigs.
Beautiful creatures.
I wish you future success and happiness
Thanks Sue for taking the time to read. Pig are beautiful creatures and I’d have them again in a heart beat! One day!
I lost my little farm too. The tenancy ended suddenly as the landlord decided to sell up and cash in on it (but later had to change his mind due to it being of unorthodox construction and unmortgageable and so he ended up renting it out again!! Extra gutting! ).
My life has never been the same since. I had to sell my closed herd of dairy goats ( I sobbed that day til the tears ran out) and I had to sell my geese, hens, ducks, quail...rehome my 4 ponies....l left behind young fruit trees that I never got to witness bearing fruit.....the list goes on..... I grieve it still to this day 9 yrs later....I long to go back . It was my soul home. Its devastated me. I hear you xx
I'm so sorry to hear this, I'm really sad to say i've heard similar stories before. Its sad that neither tenant farmers or landowners are safe from being forced out of the industry. I think what gets me is that some people don't understand the deep heartbreak. Yes sometimes people have to give up their dreams, big deal. But most people don't have to say goodbye to animals that had such an impact on their lives. And equally we have a huge impact on our livestock's lives. We become a family working together.
Ive been quite strong lately writing my posts on the end of our farm but this one broke me because of the loss of me pigs.
Thank you again for sharing your story with me. If you ever need to talk, i'm hear to share your grief.
Thank you. I think unless you've built up a closed herd or you've run a farm singlehandedly and planted your life, blood, sweat and soul into the soil, then no one truly understands. My grief is minimised by everyone who asks me about my old life. They point out the imperfections of my old land or flip it to be about them moving house and them missing a previous property too. It's just not the same. They don't get it x
I totally understand what you’re saying and I hear you.
I love hearing about pigs who are treated well and have a good free range life. They are so intelligent.
Thank you Trina for the support! I definitely have many more stories of our pigs like the ones in this post. They truly had my heart.
Hello. Can you explain why you lost your farm please
Hi Sue, ultimately because we couldn’t afford to keep going anymore due to loosing a planning battle that restricted our farming activities too. I talk more about it in part 3